Reality Check

Yesterday I got very sad news. My close friend's mother has passed away. As I cannot actually be with him (he is overseas) I felt that blogging some of my thoughts might help me through this difficult time. It is hard for me to believe it, as she is the first parent among all of my friends' parents to pass away.

I have known this woman for nearly 15 years, she was like a second mother to me. I even lived in her house for a while and there got to know her on a more personal basis.

She was a wonderful woman. Very tough, very wise, very educated and well-traveled, I truly enjoyed talking with her and hearing about the interesting life she had led.

She died of cancer. This is a disease that runs in my family, so when I heard she had cancer, it scared me as much as her own kids, I think. It is such a mysterious, devastating disease, I think the mere mention of it strikes fear into even the toughest hearts.

The worse part for me is that she was the same age as my parents. Death makes you think about alot of things, it kinda puts you back in your place, but being the same age as my own parents, it makes me worry about them, and makes me wonder how I will deal once their time comes.

I know that she is in a better place, and that she is finally at peace and does not need to feel any more pain, but I think about who she has left behind, and although both her children are adults, it just won't be the same knowing that you only have one parent left in the world.

I wish I could see them, so that I could tell them how much I love them and that no matter what happens, I will always be there for them.